Icy Flame

I've got disconnected when I am trying to post this blog. Luckily I've already made a backup in my pc.
I begin to think of the relationship—to be more specific, think of the relationship between Mark and me. Are there any possibility for us to develop a healthy long-term love relationship? What will be the difficulties or any barriers between us if we really decide to have a love relationship?
Mark said he fell in love with me several days ago. I felt it was too good to be true but I did know he was serious. I knew he excepted some words from me also. However, I just said thank you very much and then kept silent because I really didn’t know how to say and what I should say. He stopped for a while and waited. On seeing no respond from me he asked me not to think too much. It was very hard for him to speak that out but he just wanted to let me know his feelings. My eyes were even full of tears at that moment. I remember when we first met each other he said to me jokingly he might fall in love with me and asked me whether I was attracted to him. I laughed and told him he was quite a handsome and charming guy but maybe it was quite possible that I might fall in love with him. Since I wasn’t interested in any guys for the past one year and a half since the breakup with my ex-b/f and actually I began to doubt about my sexual orientation nowadays (just joking, I think I am still straight).
How could all this happen and when did it happen? It happened before we could notice it. Just within two months we knew each other.
Am I beginning to love him now? Even I cannot be sure of it myself. One thing I can be completely sure is that I really like him and care for him a lot. His smile can light up my heart. His wit, nice sense of humor, caring and patience to me really impresses me. Surely I have to admit this, too—I am attracted to his handsome looking soon after we knew each other.
Okay obviously thing is going on pretty well between us. So why can’t I speak the word Love out since I’ve already realized he is really more than a buddy friend for me nowadays? The reasons are a lot. But the main reason is because I am lacking the feeling of security. It doesn’t mean that I don’t trust his love or believe in him. It is because I am analytical (he said this to me several times) and down-to-earth. Maybe often I have a short temper and don’t have enough patience. Also I always want to finish my work as soon as possible. But that’s just for the things but for the people I care for. I always prefer to take my time to know a person well and take my time to develop a relationship. I never want to dash of it.
He is so different from me., totally, completely different. Here I won’t focus on the details again.,,but……sigh..
I think I’d better quit thinking of this right now. I really have a headache at this moment when I begin to think too much.

Anyways…I want to change my topic now. I will talk about another of my favorite bookJ