Icy Flame

Tonight zhang, a boy who in the same campus as me, wanted to invite me out for dinner. Since i didn't have dinner yet and felt kinda hungry so i decided to go with him. However i told him "let's go dutch." he insisted it be his treat. i told him it wasn't so necessary since it wasn't a date. he was sort of unhappy but didn't say anything.
We ran into another friend on our way to one sichuan resturant nearby our campus. I smiled at her and asked whether she had dinner or not and liked to join us. she made a face at us and said that:" well enjoy your dinner. I don't want to be the third wheel." i made a face back and told her we were just buddy friends and not on a date now. the girl laughed and said:" okay, okay. i know."
Sigh. I really hope she did know but anyone here knows she is really an information bureau....
I just concentrated on my food during the dinner because i really didn't know what he wanted to say to me. i remember of my roomate told me zhang had a crush on me before and asked me just to wait and see if i didn't believe her. I am not a very sensitive person and i less care about others' feelings towards me if i consider them to be indifferent to me. zhang is a nice guy and not badlooking. we studied in the same college also and worked as dj in the student union radio station. some girls say he is a very romantic boy.
whatever, does it have anything to do with me? we are just friends and nothing more.

very few friends know about Mark so far. everyone knows i am single and free.

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zhang asked me about my midsemester exams. i smiled and told him I got eighty somethings and the cut-off points for A is 80 so it meant i'd got a's this time. "wowo, well done! " he cried out. I blinked at him and said it was because i was a bookworm and smart enough not to be involved in any relationship. in another word i was not interested in finding a b/f now at all.
he replied me half jokingly also:"so does it mean i don't have a chance to date you at all?" i realized what he was trying to tell me something.
"nope." i said.
he didn't say anything for a while and just drank his coke.
i tried ot be patient and didn't start saying anything,either.
several minutes later. he broke the ice:" well i was just kidding. you know i am also not interested in you at all. But certainly i like you as nice friend."
"haha." i laughed out loud and felt totally relaxed,"yes, i do know. zhang. actually you are too dear for my possession."
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i didn't quite enjoy the dinner tonight. to be frank i was kinda nervous at first. i am not really sure whether he was interested in me or not. But i remember well one of my friends used to tell me he made her feel so special... hmm.. maybe i can think of fix them up...:D