Icy Flame

I can never forget the day-- May 28th, 2003.-- I broke up with my ex-boyfriend. I broke down and cried for a long time.

May 28th, 2003 in despair

My soul is singing to you with a silent song in an unbridgeable distance, just to end up our love in eternal night.
The longest distance is not between the sky and the sea;
it is not between the death and the life;
it is not the cultural border;
it is not the language barrier;
it is when I am just standing just in front of you and you don't know I love you;
it is when you tell me you love me,too but you cannot love me;
it is when we know we do love each other and we have no future.

And the unbridgeable distance between you and me is: the religion.
The more hopeless the love is, the stronger it will be.

I lose my love in my life forever.

I've been totally down for the past one year and a half after my breakup with my ex-boyfriend-- a religious muslim Indian guy. Now i think it should be the beat time for me to let go something unwanted in my life and begin a new life.
However, I will always treasure those precious memories I spent with him for the whole one year we'd been together. I guess I am missing the feeling of falling in love instead of loving him.
Two months ago I just met one an American guy who works in Guangzhou, China currently. Everything is going pretty well with us so far. We seems to have almost the same wavelength and understand each other and each other’s thought and feelings pretty well. I know it is the time for me to begin a new relationship again.
My blog will track all the things going on in my life from now on

But when will I let him see my blog? lol I really have no ideas. Maybe in one month when we meet each other again in Guangzhou.